AND NOT ASHAMED TO ADMIT....
I WANT THIS MORE THAN ANYTHING.
As I get ready to compete in the 2012 Reebok CrossFit Games NorCal Regional this weekend all I can think about is how I am ready. There is NOTHING over the course of the past year that I could have done more, nothing I would change.
How I place and how I perform this weekend is 100% me. I have no excuses.
In 2009- I was injured and couldn't compete.
In 2010 - I was cocky....straight up...and got my butt kicked.
In 2011 - I was where I needed to be but didn't believe in myself. My travel schedule also made my recovery and my training volume suffer.
Now...this year....2012... I am ready.
I have been working with the BEST coach possible. Speal is my close friend who knows me...he has pushed me and made me do things I would have never done on my own. I will never be able to express the gratitude I have for him. Tack on the help I have gotten from Jason Khalipa and Neal Maddox over the past 3 months and you have a completely different athlete. I needed them to help me adjust my attitude and it has made a world of difference.
My travel schedule is under control. I have controlled some of the circumstances that limited me in the past. I have also figured out my nutrition and feel better than ever with what I have been doing.
I have no injuries. I feel fantastic.
Most importantly.....I believe. I know where I am at, and I believe that this year I can make it to the Home Depot Center. No workout or stacked region will intimidate me. I am ready.
All I can control is ME. I don't have control over how the other bad-ass girls in my region do this weekend. I can't control where MY best efforts put me at the end of the 6 events. But I believe if I do what I am capable of...the outcome will be what I have been working toward for 4 YEARS!!!
I have given and sacrificed A LOT for this, and I won't downplay that just to protect myself in case it doesn't go my way. That is cowardly.
I am NOT AFRAID. I am not afraid to say that I don't have ANY EXCUSES and that I WANT THIS MORE THAN ANYTHING. And I will do EVERYTHING I can to make it happen.
No matter what happens....NO REGRETS!!!